When I felt like “mum”
It took me a while,
I’ll be the first to admit,
I knew I’d remember it.
Not the way your one cheek dimpled,
Not the way your smiling eyes sparkled,
Not the way the sides of your gummy mouth tilted upwards…
I mean, the way I finally felt like mum.
I felt like mum while I pushed with all my might.
I felt like mum on all of those sleepless nights.
I felt like mum the first time I held you close.
I felt like mum even when I felt gross.
I felt like mum despite not having a shower or a cleanse.
I felt like mum when I saw you through the sonographer’s lens.
I felt like mum when I felt the first kick.
I felt like mum every morning while I was sick…
I feel like mum, and I remember it
I remember it when you cry,
I remember it when I cry,
I remember it when we play and when we’re too tired to play.
I remember it at morning, noon and night,
I remember it when you love me and when we’ve had a fight.
I love being mum and everything it means,
You’ll remember how much I love you – the greatest love you’ve ever seen.